I look in the mirror and hate who I’ve become. I lost the one person who truly loved me at not fault but my own. That’s where the root of my hurt comes from. Due to selfish ambitions and whispers from the devil, I gave him up. I thought late nights, different guys, parties would bring me wholeness but they didn’t. What I’ve been missing is a sincere faith. A faith based not on what others think it should be but rather a genuine, head over heels in love faith. Looking back, that is what I was missing. I felt guilt and shame for my mistakes that rather than face them, I ran. In that I lost the two most important relationships in my life. Now, he’s really gone. It is all surreal but hurts a lot. I numbe the pain for so long that it is here and it is harsh. I miss him more than words can ever express but know I am not good enough nor so I deserve his love. It hurts being so vulnerable. It hurts he doesn’t want to be friends. It hurts that I can’t shake the idea of us and it hurts that I can’t put his picture away. I’m hurt. I’m in love. I’m in pain. I’m in my darkest hour. I’m in desperation.
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Stay Inspired.
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Girls ‘going wild’ aren’t damaging a generation of women, the myth of sexual purity is. The lie of virginity - the idea that such a thing even exists - is ensuring that young women’s perception of themselves is inextricable from their bodies, and that their ability to be moral actors is absolutely dependent on their sexuality. It’s time to teach our daughters that their ability to be good people depends on their being good people, not on whether or not they’re sexually active.
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Date yourself. Take yourself out to eat. Don’t share your popcorn at the movies with anyone. Stroll around an art museum alone. Fall in love with canvases. Fall in love with yourself.
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People have a hard time letting go of their suffering. Out of a fear of the unknown, they prefer suffering that is familiar.
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